Make it last forever......

Another night with the Dome Darlings...

Dunno y after tt night i had this morbid thought tt the group will slowly drift apart in time cos we no longer have fun/interesting outings no more....

U know... like after all the board games fun n mahjong....
I wonder if our bonds r really strong enough to weather big changes???

In my opinion the group tightened in '06 with Co n Adi's wedding n it's jus 3 yrs running with the regular meet ups for birthdays n occasions.....

okie. once again... thinking tooooo much...
Von slap me for being morbid n even thinking this.

*piak*

eeps ...

i deleted a post today.

i dun think any of my 2 readers will actually notice cos this blog is quite crap in the first place.

Nothing lar.. jus bitching bout the bonus tt one.

you know... just to be safe.

im not very net savvy so i can't like literally look over my shoulders to check if got pple tracking me down mah.

i jus wanna save up to my target amount n move on to permanent doggie classes.

I hope by then the money is enough.

The itch to shop n spend money was soooo strong today....
But i tell myself to be strong cos the earlier i accumulate tt sum of money, the earlier i can quit.
Gambatte!!!!

To say it nicely... or bloody blatantly... hmmm

So recently this show called the S Factor aired its final episode in Sg..

I was damn bo liao one day in London n tot.. hmmm... wat should i do since i already paid for 24 hrs internet...

Looking for something light n hopefully good entertainment, i searched for the show in You Tube.

"Wah really have ah!?!?" was my reaction.

Really got people so free nothing to do but upload random tv shows it seems.

anywoo.. the point of this blog.

i wanted to write some really mean stuff after watching episode 6 bout dining n etiquette n deportment stuff but thennnn........ ;D

Yar, so the final episode aired n there were some really bitter cat fights going on in the show man.

But after tt i did a search online n ended up with a question to myself.
There were some girls with blogs basically... n some said nasty bitchy stuff n got all flamed n everything.
But one of the girls pretty much just narrated everything tt happened on set without a single vulgar word, or bad mouthing anyone at all.

The thing is Girl-who-only-has-nice-things-to-say is also, not incidentally titled Nice girl by the rest of the girls...

But Girl-with-bitchy-blog attracted so much attention (though negative) but definitely much more readership. Though she might not be on such friendly terms with most of them...

Then i got to thinking bout my own blogging style, n how strange-n-beautiful got me into so much trouble with the company end of last year...
But how much satisfaction i derived outta it lar! ;D

Maybe u can judge me for not yet coming to terms with wat had happened to me n my still-rebellious views on blogging...
but there r just some people out there who needs to say how they feel.
I for one love to scold $#^^%$%# cos it just makes me feel better.
Some pple like attention for the attention, i just like to talk out loud lar. ;D

Though i also agree tt certain more explicit posts should be locked for more privacy, i think also tt sometimes, bad things can be said to sound nice, n the obvious stuff can come across as vague as long as there is the right choice of words.

Oh well, dunno wats the point of this blog also, but im also wondering does a bitchy blog like mine suggest to readers who do not know me personally as a bitchy person as well??

But then again... nice is boring?! no?

Sigh..... okie thinking too much~

Time to sleep. Shitty shift morrow.
DC if u read this in time, i will actually b in Syd for the night. u can buzz me.
But very short stay la n i have another one next next week.
I know u coming back to sg soon n u veli busy over there, so i wont impose on u to buy me a 10pm dinner again. ;p

The Night I Decided to Catalogue My Shoes...

Other flygirls have money in their banks........

after tonight... i realised where all my money went... -___-

But then again.... each n every pair of shoes have got their own story.... so they all mean quite alot to me .... geezzz..~

So armed with my Canon Selphy(Xmas pressie from Bf), i got down to photo cataloging...

Patent black Stuart Weitzman

Tweed Stuart Weitzman

My most fave n only Stuart Weitzman to date from DSW Shoe warehouse in SFO.
I remember tt trip i returned to SG with a grand total of 7 pairs of shoes acquired in both Hkg n Sfo within a 7 day trip.

Got them at a steal though a can't remember their prices. think average 150-180USD each.
But compare to like SGD600 a pop here!!

These SWs babies made me realise tt u get wat u pay for with shoes.
I swore off cheap China made/night market shoes which make u blister n bleed after having the SW experience balls.
I can wear these n survive standing, dancing, prancing, drunken walking in Zouk all thru the night.

Patent black round toe Steve Maddens

Patent black round toed Steve Madden Mary Janes!
A steal from Ross in Sfo at USD17!!

Patent red Steve Maddens open toe.
One of my first few Steve Maddens from DSW before i discovered Ross.
They r so outrageously high n slutty looking i call them my "come fuck me" shoes. ;)

Unfortunately i haven't had a chance to wear them yet cos they r super painful to stand too long in or walk too much in.

Am waiting for the ultimate date where i m picked up from my door step n driven from point A to point B, brought to dinner at a Les Amis equivelant n then dropped off home at my door at the end of the night....... ;D

seriously... it's been more than 3 years since i dun have to drive myself to dates n have to portray the strong independant woman who doesn't mind foregoing the old fashioned niceities from men.

The truth is, every girl like to be treated like a princess...
N i feel tt the higher the heels a woman wears, it signifies the social status of the lady in a way lar.
Alas, unfortunately yours truly always seem to place Love in a higher priority than Bread/$.

*whimsical smile*

half size too big Stevens for me....
Only worn once.
Cos the darn thing keeps slipping off..
Finally stuck on some 100yen plastic-increase-friction thing tonight which seem to make the shoe work for me now.

Zebra print ballet flats Steve Maddens

Lace Ballet flats Steve Maddens

Steve madden open toe flats
Another USD17 bargain from Ross

Steve Madden open toe heels
Excruciatingly uncomfy.
Thank god only USD25 or something from Ross as clearance.

If u girls gonna run out to the Stge boutique in Raffles Place for these Steve Maddens at exhobitant prices of at least SGD 160 for heels.. i advice not lar.

Steve Maddens r all made in China shoes n i dunno whether is it jus me n my problem feet but i always blister with them one.

In short, they look good but are NOT good.
I rather spend the same amount of money n can get 4-5 pairs of Charles & Keith. Of which some cuts r extremely comfy.
So cheap so can wear n throw away also.

My Dirk Bikkembergs.
From an IT sale in Hk.
Another affirmation tt good shoes dun come cheap.
must be Italian made!!!

Very old substance shoes...
From at least 5-6 yrs back.
When Substance still made decent, uniquely designed babies.
Nabei tt time i walked in n looked n almost died.
Substance now worse than Pretty Fit or Mondo man.
They have totally regressed to City Plaza standard lor, all made in China n cheesy n totally NOT tasteful no more.

See last time one how nice.
This one i remember i flip thru magazine saw n MUST have it n went straight to Wheelock Place (where their boutique used to b at 2nd floor) n buy one.

the crystals started to shed so i try not to wear them too much n haven't for a long time
You think they could b any similar to the Balmain encrusted shoes tt r so vogue now? ;D

Ankle booties Nine West

My first pair of boots is from Mango.
Super good quality lar!!!! bought like 7 yrs back n still velvety soft steady like hell.
Mid calf

Calf length boots, Marie Claire.
Not comfy!!

Birkenstock Madrids!
bought for almost 2 yrs not worn yet!
it's my fifth!!!

Cos they NEVER spoil n cos im wearing like 3 on a regular basis already i dun wanna wear these yet!!
Birkis r the most comfy things on earth.
My first pair accompanied me thru Disneylands n loads of walking tours n they only get more comfy lor!!

My sparkly Converses.
Worn only like twice.

Also cos i have got 2 other Converses which i wear overseas for walking n they never spoil also.
In Sg i seldom wear Converses also lei...

My Aldo Platform wedges.
Too high la. make my knees pain but so pretty!

My 300 yen shoes from a shop in the basement of a building in Shibuya, Tokyo
Comfy like hell!
One of the rare finds where cheap shoes r good!

Guess platform wedges in Leopard.
How to resist??? its leopard print can!??!?!
Like 60 USD on sale in States...

Guess Bronze sharp toe pointies.
On sale in SG SGD99.

My very first pointies were from Guess n i wore them to death.
n to death i meant many nights of prancing, jumping, standing for 5 hours, drunken stumbling while partying n they only get more comfy.

So i love Guess pointies...

My comfy platform wedge slip ons from some chat chat shop in FEP.
Cheap n good for those days i jus need some height to not look stubby.

Gap wedge platforms bought on sale eons ago.
Hardly wear cos heels not high enough n somehow i always look like i got stubby legs in it lei.

So i havent bought shoes for a long time until recently...

only halfway thru........-__-

My more newly acquired shoes r...

Charles n Keith.
on sale lei! under S$35!

When the gladiator sandal trend took off n i kinda had to have them
Also i keep seeing C&K shoes featured in magazines so i took time to have more than a 2nd look at the stores n found these....


Brown Mary Janes in patent snakeskin pattern!
S$28 only on sale!

C&K shoes r darn comfy la!!!!! good value for money!

H&M USD29
Its the gladiator sandal trend la.
keep seeing them in magazines.

More strappies. Dollhouse
Gotta stop buying them liao!!
Both steals at 17USD from Ross

Finally had Sfo flight after 1.5yrs!!
I died in Ross this time round!! ;D


Best buy of my recent 2 yrs of shoe shopping
Ralph Lauren turqoise flats at 80USD from Ross
Original price bout 400 USD.

Since i discovered Ross i stopped buying shoes in DSW Shoe Warehouse le.
Plus i never find nice Stuart Weitzman at DSW anymore......n had enough of lousy Steve Maddens after getting over the novelty of the brand.

By the time i was done taking pictures n wiping down the dusty shoe boxes... my room looked like this...

I seriously think if i stack them up in one neat pile they might jus reach the ceiling....
Sighhhh......... a large part of my hard earned money... *cringe*

I cleaned n clicked n printed n stick til 4 am in the morning...........
N got this....

Tadah!!!

No more wasting time when choosing shoes for my outfit.
Or opening n closing boxes to see wats inside, only to risk whole pile falling down on the floor on to my head.

No need to spend money buying those transparent shoe boxes from Ikea too!!

Im so happy n proud!! ;D *beams*

i really should have jus done this long time ago.

these 26 pairs of shoes do not include those cramped outside in the cabinet with the rest of the family's.

Nor my sneakers n slippers!!
N my Tokidoki sneakers.....

argh............ i ban myself from buying shoes after this le.
at least now i see tt i really got ALOT. n another patent black pump or some other crap seems irrelvant now tt i seem to have shoes of all heights, colours, shape, design.

sigh....i jus feel heart pain for the money la. really lor. *grimace*

cheeeena poWar!!!

Pple close to me know that im diplomatic.
I give most ppl the benefit of the doubt.
And the words "u sure not?!?!" hang on my lips whenever some outrageous gossip bout others comefrom others.

But when im prejudiced means im prejudiced.
Not only cos I stereotyped.
but only cos these ppl take advantage of the benefit of the doubt i have given them n proved me wrong.

so yes... today's topic is bout a particular group of foreign workers who have dominated the blue collar workforce in our lovely singlish country.

From a mere presence in ktv lounges n pubs...

They have spread like a plague n r now serving us our food, preparing our food (n freakin' blowing snort out of their noses like i once witnessed this meat cutting guy at my regular steamboat joint. yeeesh!!! *gag*)
... selling us electronic items, clothes, cleaning our loos... EVERYTHING.

THEY R IN EVERY FREAKIN" CORNER.

I even have one in my family. n she showed her TRUE COLOURS after my grandma passed away lar! grrrr*

You would think only lonely bachelors, widowed men will hook up with them.......
tt way it's still alright not to think of them as coming here to steal our men..
BUT, recently, a fren of a fren who's completely eligible (meaning got $$, got looks + damn young at my age) hooked up with one who's apparently here on a student visa.

Many of these on student visas can't even speak english.
I wonder how the hell they study here. or wat the hell they studied here.

And our govt is all so willing to hand our permanent residency to them.

Hello!! wat's going on really!??!?!

Anyway, enough bitchin', im writing this cos recently i've been having a hard time differentiating them (the females) from our own local girls.
Cos they sure r acclimatising fast, fashion/packaging wise.

Still there r top 3 signs u know is them when u see them.
Here they r:

3) You see/hear them bargaining unreasonably INSIDE departmental stores like OG, Taka, Wisma. esp at cosmetic counters.

they bug, badger n hinder the poor staff from dealing with other customers n r too thick skinned to take no for an answer.

they will press to the end for more freebies.

It's freakin' annoying cos it wastes your time waiting to be served.
n even more annoying when u see that these women r actually more well off n coiffed n r accessorised with rolex watches n the latest IT bag.

*rolls eyes*

2) You hear them before you even sight them.

The accent is unmistakable. so is the Volume. ;D
I sat across this really pretty one with absurdly good make up n kept wondering n wondering if she was. Then her fren joined her at the table n they spoke.

1) Look out for weird / really off details.....

such as: TRANSPARENT BRA STRAPS.
Hello... they r transparent... but not invisible.
maybe it's ok on aunties but not on younger ladies!!!

Also the weird nude coloured sockettes/booties/gross nude knee highs.
esp when teamed with those normal black court shoes...

it's like a HUH?!?!

Once again, nude does not mean invisible. it all screams "look at me i'm tarty!!!"


...yeah..... can someone jus ask them all to go away. n go home pls.
we dun need them to come n procreate here n con our men.
Steal can, but steal n con them... is jus damn cruel lar!

But then again, these men deserve it for being plain stupid lar.
Jus too gross for good.
.

falling asleep.....
bitching is such good therapy...

*yawnz*

Flat Line

I have become Tame.

or have i not??

i look thru other ppl's blogs hor n i feel like my life become mega un-happening lar!

sob sob~

i feel unpopular n boring. like seriously.
Whenever i used to feel lousy like this, i will read thru my (my old) flygirl's blog.
All the pics of ppl n places always make me feel like i'm living a satisfying n eventful life.

Now...............
I have nothing.... *wails*

M i jus being emo!??!?!

Sigh......
...............................................
Maybe it doesn't help when u stumble onto a colleague's blog which is exceptionally colourful n eventful (n still "broadcasting"!!) n then find out more bout yr bf's ex muse who is cute n damn happening.

*stabs self*

Also not helpin tt watever pictures i take of meself turn out bad cos my face has gotten all puffy for dunno wat shit reason despite cutting back on ciggies drastically.

Nabei, jus smoke. jus drink la. Since my gorgeous-meter (gag*) only seem to decline dramatically when i cut back.

*lights up*

swine swine swine~

heyloo!
im back from my trip down to hkg n san fran.

The swine flu had a confirmed case in sfo right before i left on sat morning.
n upon touching down into hkg, we were informed that a hotel in wanchai was held in quarantine cos some mexican guy came in on May Day.

Temperature check stations were put into place n hotel staff all donned masks throughout.
Each hotel guest was also provided with a face mask but we din use them lar.

Maybe cos i was secretly hoping tt we get quarantined in hkg (yay!) but when i listened to bf's woes n complaints bout not having me around.... i changed my mind n secretly wished i get quarantined back in sg instead.
then no need to go work! whoopppee!!

Whichever way, i still gorged myself with the delicious pig kidney dish which only the hk cafes can cook so well n in such generous portions one can't ever find in sg as well la!

Food, shopping.......
i revisited my fave shopping haunts in hk n tried to squeeze everything into a day n i must say hkg is bloody damn exciting lar!!

i want more shopping holidays there!!
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Also... managed to catch up with mega ex bf in san fran.
By mega i mean, once a big part of my life for 5 years la.

I kinda gasped when i saw him this time cos he looked so much cuter than ever.
or was it jus my imagination???

Sometimes time do play a fool with our memories i guess... ;D

Many friends r still mega ex's avid supporters but like i always say...........'right person wrong time!!" ;p

Despite saying again n again that i dun wanna shop... i think i still overspent my allowance this trip.

N gotta buy mother's day present.
gosh.

;(

oh well..

k k... promised photos from Cats with my bff Von...
my camera habits been kinda tame lately since the closure of fly girl's blog...... well *shrugs*

n would u believe it?!?!? *bitch*
if any of u read yesterday's (or day before's) Life!. there was a feature of an ex(same species) of me who published a book bout the memoirs of our kind of job.

hey..... i tot the cover design was kinda incriminating though she declined to reveal which company she worked for.

now still mourning the loss of fly girl..... all i can say is BAD TIMING.
Stupid knn big mouth member of public blabbed at wrong time.

if only the big bird was delivered to others earlier n b4 said kay poh member of public blabbed, fly girl will still b kickin n alive.. with lotsa colourful pics of my stunning (yeah yeah -__-) life. ;D

wahahhahaha~

*purr*

*scratch wall*

we caught a puddy cat!!!!
Von's hands were all over him....... then report to me "he quite fat lei!"
wahahah!

photos in my cam not yet extracted yet though...
k la k la coming!!

tired...

so tired.
i m so gonna bitch bout work.....

today i had %$^%& ppl with me.
Who freaking kept ^%$#n $%$^ for stuff even after we had satisfied their basic needs.
%^$$%^ n #%#$#% , excuse me can i have #%$^ n $^%^$.
Hello, give us a break.
i only have a pair of legs n a pair or arms. so stop calling for me.
give me time to go to the loo. give me time to have my dinner too. which i only have after u've had yours.

they say the customers are always right...
So why is it that its only on this brand of #%^%^ that the customers r harder to placate?
sometimes, the ppl of my own nationality r so spoiled. so so spoiled.
that sometimes i wonder is this how they behave everywhere else. so ashamed.
we r only 1 notch away from THAT nationality of super 麻烦ppl.
maybe we r even on par.
gosh.
so called priority pieces of shit.

Learn empathy for service ppl. n some manners please.
N above all, learn to smile back n be appreciative of good service received.
That sour scowl on yr face just lets me feel like u dun deserve me going the extra mile for u.
Thank you very much.

Late Nights on YouTube

some vids yours truly n boyfriend are totally hooked on these couple of days...

besides the latest addition of Cats tunes that im super compelled to share...

The Wonder Girls!!!
Nobody!!!

Love the dance lei!!!




Boyfriend has been reportedly playing song on repeat mode in office for the 4th day n counting........ -__-

but i dun blame him really..
it's like korean spice girls!! so wannabe-like! haha!



The original MV.
Damn funny la the guy n his toilet paper problems!! wahahah!





more more more!!!

It's so addictive their dance moves!!!

Anybody wants to put together a girl band??
i used to dance quite alot. n chereograph for campfire performance too one hor!
wahahahha!
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N I'm also hooked on the Susan Boyle clip....
Sweet old lady with lotsa spirit i say! ;D

Embedding disabled n i can't be arsed to look for another source of this full version so click this instead!
I teared after watching it 3 times in a row cos it's kinda emotional dun ya think??
Esp when u see the judges' expressions.

Cats Now and Forever~

In Sg!!!!!!



The Opening Jellicle song for Jellicle Cats!
So happy!! yippeee!!



I know i must have heard Memory before....
But wat did it sound like?? From where???



The moment she went 'memory..' I recognised it!!! jus dunno from where!
Awesome!
I never watched Cats before n I was dying to!

They finally came to Sg!! Wheeeee!!!

Pics taken with Von will be up soon! woohoo!! ;D

I'm so hooked to Cats tunes now!!

Cheesy Romantic

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars - points of lights and reason.
... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly eveything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.

When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything."


(Excerpt from New Moon)
....................


Phew...

i know right...

It's like... so intense n romantic....
YET so cheesy!!

YET SO ROMANTIC!!!

Like , if the right guy says it to me.. i will positively die n let him play me to my death lor.

But if an icky guy says it to me i will probably scowl, cringe n tell him not to be lame.

Wahahahahha!!!

I finally got my act together and tidied up my room somewhat n picked up on the Twilight saga again.
Life had been put on a hold for some weeks cos my schedule is so super packed with visits to chinese doctor, The Clinic, n long flights.... n tiring flights. n jus not enough time to rest n recuperate.
Addiction to the Nintendo dS n the games Boyfriend finally put in for me din help to get me back on track.

Back to Cheeesy Romantic...
WowWww...
*swoon*

i always think that all girls would love a romantic n sweet proposal, though not all r destined to get one...

Would I be one of the lucky ones???? ;D

Plan B

I have been laa-laa ing the past 3 weeks or so.
waiting for employer's reply on my request for unpaid leave to pursue my other interest...
after all.. they did say we could go for a period of 7 days to 2 yrs....

then...........
they jus reject my request for a sabbatical of 4 months.

so im pretty much lost now
like... after i pretty much finish my annual leave entitlement in June... i've got NO leave til end of the year.
Can DIE

Sigh... time to refocus my energies on wat's important again.
Lessons, this blog as my platform... n working towards.... well.. my dream.

Refocus refocus refocus.

Plan B is to ride out the bad economy n save enough money to tahan at least 3-6 months with no income.
N most importantly, summon enough courage to leave job. n never to look back.

Gosh i need a drink now jus thinking bout it...

Hey! It's my place as well..

Have you ever met n got together with a boyfriend at a club spot...

Then one night... you go there without yr boyfriend... with your girlfriends n frenz of your own
n you lose yr identity...

suddenly... u dun have a name...
pple address u as "who n who's girlfriend" n when u r slightly tipsy...
they come up to you n say
"hey if u can't stand straight right, i suggest u go home. otherwise (insert bf's name) won't be happy"




HELLO!!!!


I drove myself home.
Manual car no less.
i can outdrive you after 4 jugs or how many shots of watever nonsense

My friends know that.

Maybe my boyfriend dun know that.

but i was hanging out at said place, working or playing... before u did.
cos i sure din see u there when i was working there at age 20.

so dun u get WATEVER with me.


it's my playground as much as it is yours... or his.

so PUH-LEASSSEeeee.

thank you very much for yr concern.
But firstly, I HAVE a NAME.
dun call me (insert bf's name)'s girlfriend.

Secondly, dun tell me if can't walk straight, i should be going home.

I'm having my fun. Girls' night out.
Thank you.

Honeymoons, getting older... but more mellow???

bit of a randomness here...

But was sitting in car whining to Boyfriend :
"Im bored...!!!"
"Im old!!!!"

"I wanna go plaaayyyyy!!"

Boyfriend's response was..."then tomorrow we go play lor"

"dun waaaannnnn.. it's different!!"

"Why different???"

The fact is i dunno why is it different.
Maybe cos 'm older.
Or is it cos i hardly get drunk fast enough to start dancing BEFORE I get sleepy... -_-
hehe

Or maybe cos I stopped dancing cos i got lazy to in my heels...

Hmmm...
Who really knows?

And then i started to mentally reviewing my wardrobe.

"What happens if i'm 40 n i still dress like a 20 yr old??? Not like revealing stuff n all but wat if my tastes in clothes do not move towards the dressing more like my age style-wise n im stuck in a style rut?!?!?"

Scary. this age stuff...

Though the boyfriend reassured me that if i took good care of myself, i might still be able to pull off looking 20 plus while in my late 30s.... hmmmmmm
possible meh???


sigh....

N honeymoons....

As long as we r smoochy woochy moochy icky..... it's still being in honeymoon period right?
Even though we fight every other week????

Yar i think so lar.

This is such a stupid post.

hee hee.

Zzzzzzz~

I wanna go play i wanna go play i wanna go plaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!!!

I miss girl nights n big-group-of-pple-go-out nights.
Why all these kind of fun disappears when one get attached one???

No faiR!!!
My heels r growing mouldy liao.
So r my non-work eyeshadows n fancy make up.

*whines like a bitch n sigh big big*