Whatya want from me? To be an eenie mienie lover??

Adam Lambert's tune ringing in my mind.

It's kinda like a bad song to be serenaded with, i think?

"Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
It's me... I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

So
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me"

Maybe it will be better if i had always been an eenie meenie lover from the start....

i shoulda been "the type to love 'em n leave 'em n disappear right after the song"...

Maybe i will have more fun then. *wry smile*

But i do know who is very likely an eenie meenie lover... ;D

Bestie...? this song is for ya!!

Someone Like You...

I think my closest friends all know what I do when i go thru a bad time.

I either...

Drink until im outta control.

Smoke til im outta control.

Blog emo-ly til all readers get turned off.

Vent my anger on public billboards like Facebook.

Read Shakespeare like obsessively trying to pose as a cheem' emo.

Tweet heavily. To the point of annoying cos i have a tendency to fill out yr entire page w my shit.

Maybe my bestie was right to have a bad feeling.

Cos this time i actually started a Twitter acct for my puppy.

Follow him @Baby_J_den for a dog's view on his life with his owner, ie, me.

I know right?

I'm definitely going crazy this time.

Perhaps even kinda schizo??

Well.. the point of this post really...

is this:

I got to thinking bout break ups n all tt jazz.

u know those quiet moments u have to yrself n u think where did it all start to go wrong, wonder y din things work out..

Thinking about all the good times n bad.

N how time flies from yr courtship period to the down in the dumps period.

N then i asked myself.

Why oh why. if at the very beginning I had doubts bout a dude, i couldn't ever stop myself from falling headlong into another possible disaster even when i kinda knew it would b a-coming one fine day?

I thumped out my heart for an hour n 15 mins on a private blog to him, closing all but 2 months of our draggy end...

But could never find the right words to tell him all tt face to face.

He was like my soulmate when the communication medium was virtual, thru a blog of all things.

When speaking over a phone would definitely result in a shouting screaming match, 

N when skin to skin, my head just stop reasoning, my heart jus stop beating the normal way n my foul mouth jus entirely clams up??

I had told myself maybe it was only the beginning stages of new love, tts y my heart skips all the time ard him.

Then only now i realise...

It's because initial attraction pulled the wool over my eyes.

We have extremely different point of views, values, morals, all of which r such important things.

When they say opposites attract, i think they mean stuff like character, personalities, hobbies...

But when fundamental things built into a person from since he/she was brought up in, now tt's a different story. Ain't it.?

I  did love him. Hell i did.

This 2 year relationship is the second longest to tt of the mega ex.

I will always love him too.

But the clashing n fighting as a result kinda killed us, me, him.....

Maybe, Well, i'm just wondering...

The Right One ain't someone we r attracted to in the first place. 

N then try so hard to make it work.

I think The Right One is someone unassuming. Someone whom we prob dislike at first instance...but discover tt we could really TALK to. communicate properly with. Feel with heart n soul what the other is thinking... as if by telepathy?

The Right One could just b tt soulmate everyone has to have.

But this one... well..could b just The One Who Got Away...

U know. 

Like , well, The One Who Got Away (TOWGA for short), is always the one where the rship was dramatic, full of love, n sacrifices... but was never enough to make it to Happily Ever After.

Each rship/persons shld have their individual TOWGA for different indiv reasons also la.

 

I had sworn before, on my life, never to share a dogwith a bf ever again.

N look wat i did!?!

My pup has gotten so emotionally dejected after losing a supposed Daddy tt he has freakin' gone n set up a twit acct for himself.

(K Im losing it. defintiely schizo liao) ;p

So now another question.

In a lifetime, how many TOWGAs can one have?

.

.

.

Duh. 

Of cos ONE la.

it might change as experiences stack up. new relationships come along. 

like playing musical chairs.

But yes, i have come to a conclusion in my foggy sleepy crazy feverish mind now tt everybody has a The Right One n a TOWGA in his/her lifetime.

Be honoured to b someone's TOWGA though. 

Cos they will always look back fondly n think of how their life would b better/spicier/happier with u than the one they end up with......

U will b the fork in their life path. 

A decision made tt left one possibility unexplored. For watever reasons...

Notice though, tt when one chooses someone else other than their TOWGA, the chosen one might not b The Right One (TRO)either.

So u could b left with wondering if yr TRO could still b out there waiting to b discovered by u. On top of wondering if yr TOWGA regards u the same way u regard them as well..

 Basically, it means tt even if u settled down. n u r someone like me who thinks too much. or watched too much SATC, u'll never b happy.....

KNN Now tt's wat i call serious mind fucking. 

Fuvk me Fuvk my Life Max~.  >;O

(yo bestie, u understand this shit or not?! wahahah)

Yet another killer line ...

Sponge: "Yeah i wanna watch SATC2!!"

Dodo:    "yaaaar!" n starts babbling bout the part which moved me most.

Sponge: " I think in real life Carrie n Big won't get together one lor. I mean, he ding dong her around for 10 years then finally settle for her. Which man will ding dong a girl he really loves/cares bout for 10 years one??? And then decides to marry her???

I think the situation/happy ending for Carrie happens to like a very minority of women out there one lor..."

Dodo: (in deep thought thereafter)

You know. i never really tot bout it so objectively.

But wat she says is true... ;]

When u incorporate the rule of "He's just not that into You" into the whole SATC thing. it all just doesn't make sense....

"A little piece of Heaven" might just only exist in fantasy land...

Sigh.....

SATC2 the Movie.

After movie, I commented to bestie the scene that disturbed me most.

That was when Big presented Carrie w the black diamond to remind her tt she is married to him.

To replace the crappy LCD tv he gave her for their anniversary.

Accompanied with the fact tt he forgave her for cheating.

Can it be all too good to be true?

Men dun have to be reminded  to make up for things after they fuck up meh?

I think not lor. SIGH~

N i told her tt i think it's all bout finding the right man.

Someone who understands what u think, feel.

Watever. Just understand.

Her reply "u think really got men who will bother to take time to understand women meh?"

Eeekss..

sadly. tt could b the truth.

*wince*

But i have faith.

Cos i've had a semi Big before.

sigh. n i thought i wouldn't b so Carrie-d-away after hearing bad reviews bout the movie.....

oh. n u know the line tt got to me most?
When she asked him y a black diamond n he replied it's cos she's always non traditional.
;_(
So sweeet i wanna stab myself for all the times i end up with men who never seemed to know me.

Melancholy.

I have been so sad n aloof lately that i dun think i can stand me if I only had someone like me for company.

Talk bout big change in character. 

Need Plan C!!

Sometimes in life, opportunities come all at once n make u confused with the many choices...

Then before u know it. 

Circumstances, or change, simply takes ALL these opportunities away at the same time too n leave u with... NOTHING.

No alternatives, no other options. Jus a sudden blank.

I'm looking for a sign.

A direction.

A Anything. 

Is courage all i need?? 

To venture into something the way i've never done before in my life?

I hate the feeling of wading in the deep end of the pool before i can b sure of my water treading skills.

That's wat's holding me back.

Is patience all i need?

To wait for that something GOOD to finally land in my hands??

I hate the feeling of turning away something n not being sure if anything else is ever gonna come along in the end.

Or is versatility all i need?

To be able to switch back n forth n multi task big time n still be good at watever i m doing...?

Let something happen soon pls.

N let tt opportunity be mine.

Adventures of Groomer Girl n Super Dog~~

Hey ya.

Yeah, it's Day #15 me n my adopted Golden Retriever r stuck hip to hip... so to speak.

Seriously, who would ever think tt having a puppy, settling it into a new home is so time n energy consuming??

Well. Maybe u won't think so.

But i think discipline n routine/patterns r very important to ensuring tt the dog settles in quickly, esp for toilet training!

but well, i is a control freak. 

Need for things to be in correct place ASAP one... ;p

Anyway, my original daydream plan was to set up another blog titled Adventures of Groomer Girl n Super Dog.... 

;D

n narrate the days of our lives together, with both my voice n Baby Jayden's...

But Neh neh la...

I is so busy bringing him to walkies mornings n evenings...

n watching him making sure 

1) he doesn't drink the chlorine-added water inside the water feature at my main door

2) he doesn't go near the water n fruits at the altar cos tt would definitely cause my parents to dump him right outside the house door.. -_-

3) he doesn't enter our toilets n drink from toilet bowls or the laundry water.

4) he doesn't run away whenever the grandfather moves in n outta the main door to use the loo, have his meals etc. which is freakin annoying cos it's often enough to spoil the lock on my gate >.<

5) he doesn't bark. at members of the family coming or leaving home... at sudden noises coming from outside the house.

6) he doesn't try to get onto beds, sofas, pple with food... etc. I kicked him off my bed like thrice before he got the idea n stopped being a rascal testing my boundaries.....

7) Clean off the pee tt splashes off onto the wall OR little bit tt goes outta the pee pan AND wipe off his paws after he peed in pee pan cos he dunno how to 'siam' n he trots off around the house with pee covered paws.. -_-"

N he's a BIG dog so he pees ALOT.  That's also why.

8)he doesn't pee outside the pee pan. which now is only there til a couple more months cos he's more or less conditioned to pee on grass now.

Which means more sweat for me cos this bugger drinks water like a fish n he can pee up to 4Xs more in the afternoon between the 1-6pm period between his first n last meal/walkie of the day.  

 FML i know.

...........................................

So anyway, Jayden is a really good boy n he knows to leave the altar n fountain alone since Day1 it seems.

The barking at ppl coming in n outta the house has stopped completely by Day 4 when he has grew more comfy in the house.

N with a click of my tongue n stern look from me, he knows what he can or cannot do.

Now there r no more peeing incidents at home cos i bring him to school w me everyday.

But i haven't got the heart to leave him at home for more than 5 hrs cos puppy being puppy, these newly formed good habits can always be forgotten quickly enough if there is no one to check him all the time.

Wat's more, everybody else at home do not understand doggie speak good enough to discipline n check him. N he bullies everyone else who doesn't seem alpha male enough for him... like ZZzzzz~

Like my 老师 always says "狗没有错的只有人有错。"

It's really all bout educating the owner in order to have a disciplined dog.

................

Ever wondered why in the Europe n other countries, dogs r readily allowed into LV boutiques, trains, cafes etc while in SG it's like so restricting for pet owners???

Because of irresponsible n selfish pet owners.

How many of u reading this now (with a dog of cos) actually walk yr dog w a freakin' poo bag in hand n ALWAYS picks up yr doggie's poo???!!!???

How many?? or rather HOW FEW????

Cheebye, every morning n evening my dog poops twice n i pick twice everyday n i think im the only modern dog owner who actually does tt cos my area is FULL of fresh 'landmines' daily.

N how many of u check yr stupid retarded male dogs from marking with their pee ENDLESSLY n UNNECCESARILY like every nook n corner???

I say 'unnecessary' cos it's a VERY bad habit n many dogs who have this habit r not only simply annoying but when they run out of pee to spray they still run to corners n lift their leg up 'action action' over n over again.

I jus want to say tt its unsightly n FREAKING ANNOYING.

Reminded me of an ex's retarded CKC who loved to do tt. n when we went to a now defunct pet cafe, the retarded dog jus ran around disrupting ALL the other patrons n i was too embarrassed to even finish my meal there.

What can i say?

Like Owner like Dog.

Retarded Owner Retarded Dog. 

*miffed*

(FYI, my GRs , namely Whiskey n Jayden hardly have the habit to lift their legs to squirt their pee. Jayden recently started but i made sure I smack his leg down so he doesn't do it anymore. See!! it's correctable one!!!!)

N becos most Singaporeans r retarded dog owners who r not foolishly but just OUTRIGHTLY STUPID AND IGNORANT,  dog owners r hated by many non dog owners n therefore the many restrictions for us minority responsible dog owners.

I look at the ang mos n i wonder why do they know so much more bout doggie discipline n training n breed info n all tt. 

n i grit my teeth whenever the aunties n uncles ignorantly shun my 'big dog' simply cos they jus think big dogs r dangerous.

WHICH IS WRONG!!! OH SO WRONG!!!

Small breeds like JRT, Silky, SZ etc have so much more tendencies to growl, bare their teeth n snap than Big breeds like GRs, Huskies, Collies etc!!!

WHY SO MANY STUPID PEOPLE OUT THERE ONE!!!!!! *SCREAMS N PULLS HAIR*

15 days with my dog n im feeling passionate bout starting an activist movement to lobby for more public places to be pet friendly. like seriously.

But more thought put into it made me realise tt it involves more than changing rules but more like changing pple's mentality, esp the "aunties n uncles" approach to pet care n being considerate to non pet owners etc.

N when it comes to a mish mash society of different levels like ours, the task might just b close to impossible. ;(

So please, if any of u out there who r considering getting dogs, pls do yr research first n understand the implications of being a good owner.

I recommend watching shows like The Dog Whisperer by Cesar Milan (my fave!) for ways to curb n deal with behavioural esp aggression problems, n how to give yr pet love the right way by being a confident pack leader. OR pls do read books on how to feed, care, train, control a dog BEFORE getting one cos habits form quickly esp for a pup.

With more responsible n smart pet ownership, i wish for the government in SG to be more lax when it comes to restrictions for us!!!

- _ -"

"Hey u r xxx's girlfriend rite!!!?"

"er how u know?"

"No larrr! I saw yr pics with him on his fb!!!

You dun remember me???"

"Er ... no?"

"Anyway u check out his section on Fb lar! it's somewhere in the XXX section where i'm one of the XXX"

"Er... i dunno.. i can't go to his wall. seems like im blocked. ... "

"Huh???"

"er yar.. dun ask me why...."

................................................................................

-_-"

geeeZ~

I'm just waiting...

... for Love, to fall down like rain...........

is it possible for our parched roots of love to be nourished again??

"Maybe my expectations r too high. cos tt's wat u always keep saying...
But then again... mountains have to be moved.... 
to prove tt you r really tt into me.
Else i'm jus a fluffy cushion...for yr lonely emotions... "

Affected Affections....

It's funny how one moment i can be ultra optimistic bout life...

And the next... down in the dumps...

Simply cos of one simple remark, or abstract-ish comment yr loved one put on their MSN, Watsapp, Facebook status blahblah...

Well... i suppose it's for my good tt he blocked me off then.

I'm never very good at guessing wat's in the other person's mind anyway...

N with my wild imaginations, i make like the WORST inference.... Argh.

So tt's for causing the constant mind fucking.

So since he constantly blames me for my own mind fucking tt causes the rifts in our relationships, i will continue to numb myself in daily activities n act dumb dumb i guess.

I can't wait for dog to enter my life now.

I need a listening ear, a pair of understanding eyes... 

n someone who doesn't give his judgements immediately n cause me to b upset.

N i need someone warm to hold n hug n be constantly by my side as i will b by him.

M very sure Baby Jayden will fill up tt void in my painful heart.

I'm fine.

But why do i still feel pain? ;(

Sighhhh... how?

I read this past post of mine...

N I got confused again.... 

Yeah, it's true.

He keeps trying to break things off.

So wat if circumstances in life dun allow things to work?

Love will conquer all rite?

Like i kept repeating to him, I nvr allowed this break to happen earlier even though we've been fighting for a good 9 months.

This happened only because he kept saying he wants to let me go to find another person.

I jus keep interpreting it as ... He's just not that into me.

It's painful.....

I hope the time apart tells me heart the answer it seeks. ;_(

Taking time out to understand...

... more Shakepeare. ;D

Really regret not taking up Literature in my schooling days now.

Oh wellll...

I almost cried just now reading this.

I dunno why...

Romeo: 

"With love's light wings did i o'perch these walls,

For stony limits cannot hold love out,

And what love can do, that dares love attempt;

Therefore thy kinsmen are no stop to me"

Though i only read this the first time ever,

I do think i would very much be Shakespeare's romantic soulmate. lol~

Love does conquer all....

One won't feel pain, hunger, weariness when motivated by love.

Well.. at least tt's me.

So please dun try to change my dreamy romantic ideals to something so realistic n practical n so not me anymore. 

I truly do not appreciate that.

This is me.

N i seriously think this is the reason why i'm lovable!! hohohoho~ *thick skinned*

"Love goes toward love, as schoolboys from their books,

But love from love, toward school with heavy looks."

..........................................................................

Gonna be a busy day morrow.

Picking up a friend's dog to groom n i hope my Google maps GPS function work properly morrow to get me to location man.

Then gotta send back dog n then gather at Temasek Poly for this pet course.

Also will be parting with $450 worth of course fees.

The course fees r seriously draining me dry.. seriously WTF lor.

Course for next 4 days til 10pm at night... i confirm @_@"

n zzzzzz in class.... 

N What the hell i doing here posing w my new found Shakespeare!??!

Stupid!

I shld be writing tt letter to Pure Yoga requesting for my 5 classes back!!!

ARGH.

I dun wanna bother but this is too much 漏财 in a month i can't take it readdddyyyyyy!

*pulls hair* ;p

Who's more in pain?

So i've been reading Shakespeare on my iPhone these days while on the train n bus stops...

Starting with R + J of cos. 

Might move to Macbeth next...

I always felt like the Bard portrayed Romeo as the more oft depressed of the pair of lovebirds....

He's like this super emo, n everything R says is as if he'd always a knife in his heart...

Juliet seemed to always just bask in his love.... n just content n happy in loving him...

Well wat would i know? 

I nvr studied Literature in depth n i'm only at Act 1.

Well.... I loved what Romeo said here...

"Why, such is love's transgression.

Griefs of mine own lie heavy in my breast,

Which thou wilt propagate to have it press'd

With more of thine. This love that thou hast shown

Doth add more grief to too much of mine own.

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs,

Being purg'd, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes,

Being vex'd, a sea nourish'd with loving tears,

What is it else? a madness most discreet,

A choking gall, and a preserving sweet."

There, the definition of Love.

Never been more aptly put into words....

In my story, this Juliet is more in pain than Romeo.

Vexed n filling a sea out with loving tears.

Nothing else but a madness in my head i can't seem to tell anyone , n which no one else wants to hear of anymore.

And definitely a bitterness which chokes me every now n then, but with such sweet memories.

Check me into Rehab. Likeseriously.

Click on mixpod.

"Baby, baby, when we first met

I never felt something so strong

You were like my lover and my best friend

All wrapped into one, with a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden, when you left

I didn't know how to follow, it's like a shot

That spun me around and now my heart left

I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another, the way I gave it to you

Don't even recognize the ways you hit me, do you?

It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back

And you're the one to blame

And now I feel like, oh, you're the reason why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more

I guess this is what I get for wishful thinking

I should've never let you into my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave

I should just let you go on and do it

It's not amusing like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when your love slams?

You'll do anything for the one you love

'Cause anytime that you needed me, I'd be there

It's like you were my favorite drug

The only problem is that you was using me

In a different way that I was using you

But now that I know, it's not meant to be

You gotta go, I gotta wean myself off you

And I'll never give myself to another, the way I gave it to you

Don't even recognize the ways you hit me, do you?

It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back

And you're the one to blame

'Cause now I feel like, oh, you're the reason why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more

I guess this is what I get for wishful thinking

I should've never let you into my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave

I should just let you go on and do it

It's not amusing like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease

Oh, you're the reason why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more

I guess this is what I get for wishful thinking

I should've never let you into my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave

I should just let you go on and do it

It's not amusing like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

It's like I checked into rehab

Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby, you're my disease"

For everything else, follow my tweets.

I'm a mercenary, materialistic, realistic bitch. 

I know how to love, but i'm trying to pretend i was not even educated in that.

All im left with are the basic values that I have been taught.

That is : "Treat others how u like to be treated."

And: "Honesty is the best policy"

I thank my mother n my basic education who n which ingrained that in me.

Those who dun feel the same, stay away from me.

Love, like rain.......

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy.

But sometimes, under the angry heat of life,

Love dries on the surface and must nourish from below,

Tending to its roots,

Keeping itself alive."

- The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom

I devoured this book in one sitting(actually only bout 4-5 hours), on this Saturday night when i'm at home.

When I picked up the book again after a shower, boyfriend came by with surprise dinner tapao jus when I was settling for yoghurt n potato crisps for a late dinner. 

That was nice...... :)

Actions like these, n those of little initiatives, like holding my hand n telling me everything is gonna be fine whilst in an argument....

are to me like love in the rain.

It falls over us n reaches the grounds, n gets stored beneath the earth's surface for use again when too much heat n sun takes a toil on us. 

It can then be tapped from the roots of our love again, for days when the love no longer falls like rain.

How much is in our love reservoir?

How deep underground do our roots of love stretch?

I stress again and always on the foundations of a relationship.

Communication, understanding..... lotsa talkin talkin talking....

To me... when a couple gets each other, it's everything. Ain't it?

.................................................

Nearing 3/4 of the book, parents started hollering at each other in the bedroom

Well, more like my dad hollering n my mom speaking in hushed tones.

Sounded to me like 1 wanting very very much to communicate n talk n be heard n be understood. While the other simply was too lazy to do so. 

N they do this all the time!?

N I feel the pain of both, u know?

The one who wishes to be heard n understood becomes more desperate n despaired when the other refuses to see things his/her way.

It becomes a lonely battle with one's own mind. 

How else do u get outta yr head what u wanna say, jus to one particular person, most of the time the closest to u?

The one who is simply too tired, blanked out from work, can't handle neediness, can't express self person will simply become horribly frustrated at the other person who keeps pushing his/her tots onto ownself.

He/she feels like the other is trying to force something outta them. n therefore, more frustrations.

Leading to anger.

SIGH.

It sounded n feels like my arguments with bf. 

Well. i dunno. 

There r bad days n there r good days.

I'm jus glad to be home tonight to witness my parents' fight. 

At least i know wat goes on beneath the surface, though im still wondering whether it was okie for me to intervene the way i did.

It affirmed the fact that i need to sit down with my mommy for a good heart to heart talk one day...

Well i think i shld make it soon.

N it also kinda added more stress for me being the eldest in the family n being jobless n kinda in between everything in life now.

Argh.

Esp when hearing daddy lamenting while in tt argument jus now bout how tired he is of working working working n how he feels like jus shirking responsibility n walking out.

I cant blame him really.... bearing the burden of a family of 4+1 on his aching, tired n sore knees is really bad.

(+1 cos of grandpa. n Grandpa is simply driving mom up the wall with his stupid elderly tantrums n quirks. n mom in turn drives dad up the wall cos she needs an outlet. i just wish it was Grandma instead of Grandpa though. Cos she's so much more of a delight to have around. Fuck. should i even be allowed to say this?!?!? Geez)

I have sore knees too, n i know exactly how bad it feels every single second.

I need a sign, a direction. Someone to tell me wat to do quick so i can relieve my sore kneed father before he can no longer walk.

Time to look into my reservoir of strength, which gets bigger n deeper as more Love Rain falls. 

I draw strength from my rship. I know it's a big risk to take. 

But tt's me, when im happy in love, nothing else matters.