Round round....

It feels like I'm jus running round n round in circles....

Round n round, round n round...

Run there, kena block, run back...
Run the other way, not happy with where i'm going, run backwards...

so round n round, back n forth.
Still not happy.

I thought i was happy.
hmmm.. actually i thought I am happier than i used to be?!

Maybe i'm always thinking too much ?

But there is this big blockade damming all the happiness up on the other side.
That, i can actually see, you see.

I wonder what can bring down the dam.

In the meantime,
I just keep running...

Round n round, up n down....
Searching for contentment.
Looking for connection.
Hoping that the rays of sunshine light up my dull, damp, worn down heart....